dont get me wrong, i have good grades, i go to church, i am going to be getting a job working with toddlers and baby's, and my friends range from emo, to prep, to geek, to jocks. i look average enough, slightly smaller than the rest and alittle more feminen, but still.
nothing to set me apart from the rest of my year. i have straight A's.
so why did god think t right to pick on me.
and to make it even worse, even though i know it wasnt my fault that he died, i have this stupid war going pn inside my skull that says that it was my fault and let me tall you, rationality is fighting a loosing war.
the funeral is this saturday!
and then thers all the high school drama that comes with being a female, the only female might i add, that has not ever dated anyone. so what do my lovely friends do.
they try the whole time i am at homecoming and befor and after to set me up with various men. not just my friends might i add. noooooooo
i couldnt get that lucky
the upperclassmen have to take it into there heads that a pretty little thing like me shouldnt be all alone in the big bad world of couples and hormones. so what do they do.
They try to set me up!
i could kill them.
and i am so sick of being , well, SICK!
and because of the bloody fall and winter thingy my body has issues with i am getting constant nosebleeds, and fuck it all!
i have been crying for only god knows how long.
i need one of those snger managment balls! and dont even get me started on politics!
the whole lot of them are a bunch of bone-headed mushbrained, slors(hore+slut)groun.
anyway, lifes great, how about you?
alright so i am offically fighting thwe horibble depression monster. don't worry, im not ganna go and slit my wrists or any such nonsence, but bugger it all! this is shite! my grandpa Booth just passed away and grrrrr i am so wacked out emotionally right now. and knowing me it will last because i hold onto wemotions like a diabetic holds onto sweets. its just not fair. did i mention im really bitchy. and no, thats not all, my stupid computer audrey decided to not let me accses half the sites i'm logged onto, so no bebo, or fanfiction, or any orpg's either beacuse she's stupid, i cant post my pictures either because i cant get onto my DA account and my stupid school forgot to renew EDLINE so i cant check my grades unless i ask my teachers personally which happens to get me tons of stupid jokes about how i worry to much about my grades and i think my friends belive that i have finally lost it! hah! me, lst it! nonono my dears. not me. its the rest of this god forsaken world. and to top it all of my cat Rasckal might have something bad going on that is not natural.